š¤ The big āWhat if?ā
Staring at the crossroads of passion, purpose, and practicality, wondering if I made the right choices or if Iād somehow missed my shot.
When I was 22, I thought I had it all figured out.
Hereās what I knew at the time:
š I loved computers. They felt like a secret code to endless possibilities.
š I wanted my work to mean somethingālike, really make a difference.
š Oh, and I needed to eat, pay bills, and someday support a family.
These three truths felt like they were constantly fighting each other.
Pursuing my love of computers? Too indulgent.
Chasing a meaningful career? Medicine seemed noble.
Building a stable life? That meant playing it safe.
Sound familiar?
This isnāt a story of regret, though. Itās about rediscoveryāand realizing that the paths we think we āmissedā might actually be leading us somewhere incredible.
šŗ Back in the day, life was simplerābut so were the options.
I grew up in a world with three TV channels, fuzzy signals, and no internet. The choices were limited, and so were the expectations.
But then my Commodore 64 came into my life.
Iād spend hours typing out code, watching in awe as a few lines of logic created something out of nothing. It was thrilling, but back then, it also felt⦠impractical.
The narrative was clear: follow the ārightā path, play it safe, and leave your passions as hobbies.
Raise your hand if you heard the same thing growing up. šāāļø
šÆ The High Achieverās Dilemma: Dreams vs. Expectations
Hereās the thing: I chose the ārightā path.
I went to medical school.
It was noble, respectable⦠and exhausting.
I shelved my curiosity for technology in favor of long hours, grueling training, and the promise of a secure career.
At the time, it made sense. Bills donāt pay themselves, right?
I figured, āJust get through this, and you can circle back to the other stuff later.ā
But ālaterā has a way of sneaking up on you.
š Medicine vs. Computers: Why did it feel like I had to choose?
Even as I dove into medicine, I couldnāt shake my love for computers. They were logical, intuitive, and endlessly fascinating.
But hereās the kicker: society didnāt seem to value it the same way.
Medicine was āserious.ā
Computers? Just a nerdy hobby.
At one point, I was offered the chance to pursue an MD/PhDāa way to blend my two worlds. But I was overwhelmed. Two extra years of training felt impossible when I already just wanted to finish and start my ārealā life.
Ever felt like you had to pick one path, only to wonder later what mightāve been?
š Fast forward 26 years: The āahaā moment that changed everything.
At 48, something incredible happened.
I stumbled into computational neuroscienceāa field that combined everything I loved about medicine and computers.
Suddenly, it all made sense.
The tension Iād felt for decades wasnāt a problemāit was preparation.
But let me be honest: I had doubts.
Starting fresh at 52? Taking on another decade of learning?
Was it too late?
Hereās what I realized: Itās never too late.
Not to learn.
Not to grow.
Not to step into the life youāve always been curious about.
š The power of looking back: Your scattered paths are more connected than you think.
For so long, I thought Iād been walking two separate roads.
Medicine. Computers.
Practicality. Curiosity.
But hereās the truth:
Those āseparateā paths were converging all along.
My medical background gave me insight into human behavior.
My love for computers gave me the tools to process complex data.
Together? They created something richer than I ever imagined.
The same might be true for you.
What if the things youāve set aside arenāt separate, but complementary?
š Regret? Nah. It was all part of the process.
For years, I carried regretāthinking Iād missed my chance to integrate the different parts of who I am.
But now, I see it differently.
Every twist, every detour, every āmissedā opportunity?
It was all building something.
I wasnāt falling behind. I was gaining perspectiveāseeing connections others couldnāt.
And maybe⦠so are you.
š Your calling isnāt something you missāitās something you create.
Hereās what I want you to take away from my story:
Youāre not behind.
Youāre not scattered.
And you definitely havenāt āmissedā anything.
Take a step back and look at your journey.
Where might your passions and experiences overlap in ways you havenāt noticed yet?
Ask yourself:
š What skills or interests have I sidelined?
š How could they complement my current path?
š Whatās one small step I could take toward integrating them?
The truth is, your calling isnāt hiding somewhere.
Itās right there, waiting for you to shape itāstep by step, choice by choice.
So⦠whatās the next step youāll take?

Leave a Reply